so far this semester i have been trying to stay on top of things and make sure i do all the little things right so my days are less stressful in the end. last night we had our first campaigners of the semester at the Burley's house. i was sitting next to Hannah, a freshman at Mason, and we were talking about things we can do better to stay more "spiritually fit" and Hannah said she needs to focus more on the things she does anyways. it totally put into words what i have been feeling for so long! everyday i am doing the same things over and over, but half the time i feel like i am just rushing through them to get them out of the way, but they just keep coming back. we have to put everything we have into those things so we can be proud at the end of the day with where we put our time and efforts.
me and one of my best friends had a hard conversation this past week about making hard decisions and being okay with them. this is something i have been struggling with for like a year and a half now...we talked about how we always pray that God will show us what decision to make and then we sit around expecting it to just all make sense one day; that we'll see a sign that points us in the right direction. but i have found in the last few years that this just doesn't happen the way we think it will. sometimes we will make a decision and second guess ourselves for years to come. i know.
what Hannah said though really caused me to refocus. so often God speaks through our everyday life...he doesn't just cause a big random event to occur that guides us, but he whispers throughout our mundane, everyday lives. if i would just focus more on what i am doing each day...really put my thoughts and energy into them, then i am going to get way more out. there is a reason that my life is the way it is right now. God is trying to teach me something through my classes, homework, friends, living situation, teammates....if I am just looking ahead for some miraculous event i am going to miss the great lessons to be learned through all of this. so just pray for me this week that i can try to refocus on life the way it is. and i hope you are learning a lot too :-)
*The Lord your God is with you...He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing."