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Friday, January 22, 2010

thicker than water.

one of the hardest things about my faith is not knowing how to share it.

it's hard to share with christians, because a couple of different things can happen:
1. it becomes a game of who knows more/who is the better christian
or
2. you are at completely different places in your walk and thus one person leaves feeling like a failure
or
3. a simple conversation starter can be misconstrued as a call for help and instead of a great chat about faith, it becomes a sit and listen to how you should fix all your problems

on the other hand, it is just as hard if not harder to share your faith with non-christians because:
1. you don't know how they will receive it so you mention all the aspects of your faith except one important one: God
or
2. it quickly becomes a debate in which neither side is learning anything, but rather only defending themselves
or
3. you don't think you know enough to be able to actually say anything about your faith because you know it will be questioned and you aren't sure how to answer anything, so instead you just chat about worldly things that they may care about but you really don't

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it's like you are trapped in this private faith. not knowing when to say something and when not to. not wanting to have to correct a brother in Christ and also not feeling prepared enough to save someone.

i want to glow with Christ. exude His Love. and make it the center of everything i talk about. not necessarily straight up, but at least the undertones. if my faith is something i am staking my whole life on, i feel like i shouldn't care what counters could await me in conversations. i know that in those moments God has promised that as long as we are in prayer - He will give us the words to defend, to show love and to produce faith.

it's hard because i tell myself - it's not that i am afraid. it's not that i feel like i will be persuaded into another faith. it's not that i'm not proud or completely confident in what i believe. i'm not sure what it is. but i pray that i can continue to grow in my faith, in order that i may show the confidence in God that i know He has in me.

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Proverbs 21:3 - "The Lord is more pleased when we do what is right and just than when we offer him sacrifices."

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