wasting time.

what does it take to fully surrender?

to choose to respond out of love and not out of fear?

how do you run the race set before you without just running around and around?

how am i to know what the Lord has planned?

i cannot. 

i can only choose daily one of two things. 

to realize who i am in Christ and live with abandon or to know and choose to be paralyzed instead.

doing. does not mean you have to leave. it doesn't mean you have to change everything around you in order to "begin" doing the will of the Lord. there is a time and a place for everything. a season for everything under the sun. a time to move. a time to love. a time to be still. a time to be ok where you are and a time to resolve to change everything around you right. now. 

where is the line between doing and listening? how do we find where God needs us without taking action. without being ok with wreaking once in a while. like getting t-boned and not knowing which way is up kind of wreaking. 

i know the Lord goes before me. when he has won the battle before it even starts, he leads the way. he reassures. he comforts. he fights. but he still expects us to follow and fight right behind. not to win the battle for ourselves, but to know more fully the total love we can rest in daily.

learning to fight, even though i know the battle is already won. because he first loved me.