running away.

the past two weeks have been some of the hardest in a long long while.

last week i found out friday morning that i did indeed tear my right ACL...make that a pair of bum knees.

i have surgery scheduled for next Thursday afternoon, March 6th and i am pretty nervous about it. i have already had 2 ACL surgeries on my left knee, so you'd think i would be an old pro...but this one is going to be a little bit different...this time they are numbing my entire leg which they never did before...so basically i am going to wake up and my body is going to think there is no leg there for about 12-24 hours....AHHH!! i am so nervous about that feeling and if they pain is going to be worse because of this method! so pray for that...

anyways. i have come to grips with the surgery now and am beginning to search through why God chose to speak to me in this way again. i have already seen it have a big impact on many of my plans and one of the first things i knew God was saying to me was "This life is mine, not your own."...i can never plan out even tomorrow, it is all in God's hands.

so now i am about to drive up to Grand Rapids with my dad where he will drop me off with some of my best friends in the entire world!!! i am soooooo ready for this :-)