beauty from pain.

so pretty much since my sophomore year of high school i desperately wanted a nose ring. like sooo bad. but of course my parents laid down the law. there was no way their beautiful daughter was going to be tainted with a nose ring. but after years of hint droppings, pointing out other nose rings and sharing "what if" scenarios with them...they finally wore down and day #3 after moving into the dorms freshman year i got it pierced!!

i felt so complete...

haha...not really. but it was so sweet. i was so excited and it added a little adventure that had been missing from my life. but the thing is...is i don't understand how they got it in in the first place. it is called a "nose screw". you would think it would just be a straight post that went into your nose, but no...it has a post and then a weird C shaped "screw" on the end that holds it in securely....but let me tell you it is a ..... not fun thing to try getting out...or IN.



and here in lies my problem. after changing it from screw to post last summer for work i have stayed with post since and it has been heavenly. but the only thing is the jewels keep falling out of them...so finally i went to the place today to get new ones...problem: the only ones that don't fall out easily are the "nose screws"...SWEET!

so i buy them deciding that i can handle it and will eventually get one in. but after coming home and sitting in front of the mirror close to tears of frustration (ok...so i'll admit i actually did start crying, i was so mad)....for 45 minutes...yes, 45 minutes. i successfully got the screw part in...however, it wasn't where it was supposed to be. after a painful 45 minutes the screw just made a new hole for itself in my nose...and it was at this point that i just yanked it out and but my jewel-less post back in and left with a red throbbing nose....

i hate moments like that. seriously...i just want the dang nose ring in but it has to get complicated...and then to top it off i let it put me in a bad mood for like 5 minutes. the whole time i was driving to younglife i was fuming and muttering to myself and getting so mad, but as soon as i pulled up i was like, "dilyn, this is ridiculous...you are letting a freakin nose screw ruin your attitude"...so i got over it. but really...how many times do we let dumb things like that just set us off. i mean, yeah my nose is still tender and i'm less than happy that i just spent that money and can't even use the things...but really...life will go on.

but just in case...if you have any tips on how to get it in...send them my way :-)